Tomorrow, there are good things happening, like

• watching a movie in my 8 am class so no tedious discussions about boring books or poetry!
• no calculus homework due until wednesday!
• no bio lecture because of the 4 am intertidal trips happening all week!
• new music in choir!

not to mention the super gorgeous weather. I may lie out in the sun and read a book or nap.　

Probably gonna cry myself to sleep tonight again　

:D

I can’t sleep　

Won’t sleep

Must

Please don’t say those things… please

I put my Netflix account on hold for a month cuz I don’t have enough in my checking right now but they reactivated it two weeks later and I’ve been charged for it

wtf Netflix

Now I’m gonna have overdraft fees　

I want a tattoo

Like right now

Let’s go

So I spent the weekend with Will… mmyup :D

Friday we stayed inside and played a MLP drinking game… it was more fun than I’m willing to admit

Saturday I had breakfast with Will’s aunt and uncle - they were really nice and funny and the conversations weren’t uncomfortable at all. Then Will and I walked to Sanctuary Salon for his hair appointment… after weeks of convincing and planning, he finally managed to go through with dyeing the tips of his hair blue! Everything checks out ay-ohkay and his new hair looks quite decent, I think. Later in the day, we visited some friends for food and a long game of Cards Against Humanity (dirty/horrible-people-version of Apples to Apples, basically) and there was much laughter and good times. Afterwards, we got dinner and Will watched Tangled for the first time and I almost cried twice (I’ve seen this movie what… six? seven times?)

Sunday I woke up for mass with my mom and we had lunch with Will at the mall in Hillsdale. My mom dropped us off at the BART station in Millbrae so Will and I could take it to Union Square and walk to Japantown for the Cherry Blossom Festival. Will had never been to Japantown and I was really excited to show him around but we were kinda tired from walking and sleep deprivation so we mostly windowshopped. We bought cute teapots and taiyaki and ate dinner in Union Square and I almost gave all my money away to any homeless person who asked me for change and we finally were able to get on the BART/train and relax on the ride home and it was a very good day

This weekend was a good distraction, but I can’t avoid my thoughts and problems forever. It’s been a rough week full of ups and downs, and to be honest I still don’t know where I stand…

But I always tell myself to keep my head up and always look forward to the next best thing, because moping about isn’t going to help or change anything.

And keeping my head up is exactly what I’m doing.

>gain a follower

>spam account

>don’t care, follower count went up by one

I hate how unnecessarily stressed out I’ve been this week

It’s only the first week of the quarter and I should be relaxed cuz there’s hardly anything to do yet

But it seems as though the professors are like intentionally making things more difficult than they have to be

For example, I was trying to get into a religion class and exchanged a few e-mails with the professor who told me I was third on the waiting list then never replied to me again

And I e-mailed a professor who teaches an advanced writing class and she made it sound like I should feel lucky to be in her class cuz she hadn’t heard from any of the people already on the waiting list and there was one seat left (just for me!)

Then I showed up to that class on the second day and there were like twenty empty desks 

wtf 

why must you people do these things

I do not understand

I cut my hair short again

But as usual, it’s being uncooperative

It’s flying every which way and it’s kinda really annoying

I look like a fucking anime character

So I’m sick and have been trying to get a lot of sleep so I’m not as tired as I usually am

But I keep yawning to try to pop my ears

And then I feel tired because I’ve been yawning so much

I think I’m making myself think that I’m tired

quick story time!

my best friend and I went to go see a play at our old high school because some of our friends were in it and we went to show our support

afterwards we met up with my sister and her boyfriend and drove to in-n-out

and in the parking lot there were some guys loitering around their car who started whistling and cat-calling obnoxiously (to whom it was directed we are unsure)

anyway so I’ve been menstruating pretty heavily and tend to not give many fucks when doing so

so when one of the guys called out, “‘ay gurl you so fiiine”

I called back, “I know!!!” and let loose one of the most maniacal scream/laughters I have ever made in my entire life… I even threw my head back for extra dramatization while unlocking the car for all my unfortunate companions

it was a fun night

I know I should keep apologies to a minimum, but I just can’t help it.

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